Update!

I know this is early but yes I am updating already. lol. Although I am not really sure what I am going to write about.
I have been watching a lot of TV lately, because I don't have much to do. I have also been online a lot. So lately the focus of my attention is on relationships or lack of relationships. I am watching that millionaire matchmaker and trying to take some notes. Between that and my friend Caley's good advice I am hoping to snag me a nice Winnipeg man. So I have been on plenty of fish for a while and feel like I haven't met many guys that I connect with. They are all looking for some girl who is addicted to working out yet can party like a guy. Oh and she has to be financially independent as well and easy going and laid back. Does this girl exist?? Well it isn't me. lol. But then the guys who don't seem to be that picky are boring. They don't have anything interesting to talk about and they are too passive. So where is this perfect guy? Well I started talking on msn with a guy from Ottawa, we will call him Mr. Ottawa, and after only a few conversations I felt I had met someone pretty darn right for me. I know I know some of you are wondering, how can you know just by talking to someone online?? Well I talk to a lot of people online and don't have trouble feeling like I am getting to know them. We also both have web cams so we talk on there. So yes, I have seen him and heard him speak. We have talked for a few days and then all of a sudden, nothing. Now I don't know if he is busy or actually ignoring me. Now this is tough, because I don't want to be a doormat who is okay with being ditched like that. On the other hand I don't want to give up on him because I did feel a connection to him. So what is that about? Why do guys do that? Why do they say all the right things then pull the rug out from under you. Is that satisfying for them? I know I don't like rejecting guys, it feels awful. I guess what I am saying is I hate these games. I hate having to feel so guarded because I might fall for someone. I don't want to feel like I have to hurt them so they don't hurt me, which is how I feel with most guys. Then when I do let my guard down, they quit talking to me for no reason that I can tell. What the hell??? Why can't it just be simple.... I like you, you like me. We want to talk, to see each other, to have fun together. No games about how long till I call her again or any of that bullshit!
So I think I have made my point. So if anyone reading this knows of that guy for me... hook me up! Otherwise I will keep on searching, even if its only online. Oh and I looked into speed dating. Can you believe it is like $75 to $100 for the evening. I guess when I have a bit more money to spend I will try it out.
Until next time,
Cindy