Figure it out!?

Life has been full of ups and downs this week. Monday I had a normal day. Just went to the store to get a few things. It was basically just some exercises. Tuesday Helen came home from work with news that the company she works for needed someone for Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. She had volunteered my name and said she would bring me into work with her. I was excited to have some work since it seems to be taking forever for the kids store to get back to me. Also, on Tuesday I went to a movie in the afternoon. I was really wanting to see the movie "Australia", so I went. It was fantastic, I would recommend it to anyone. I will always remember that I saw it while in Australia. On Wednesday Helen didn't go to work since she has a bad cold and was loosing her voice. She dropped me off anyway and told me where to go. I went in and met her co-worker who explained what I would be doing. I get to sit at a desk and answer the phone. Once I have asked the client a few questions I then transfer them to someone else to help them. Sometimes this is hard because people jump right into their questions and I have no answers at all! Normally when someone calls this company they are greeted by a recording and have to push buttons to get to the consultant. They decided to do this experiment because they seem to be loosing people along the way. They didn't know if it was wrong numbers or just no patients on the customers behave. Once I transfer the client I then have to mark down where I transferred them to. It is really a simple job, but since there are two of us doing it, it doesn't seem like there is enough for both of us to do. Most of the days I am just sitting watching the happenings around the office. Today I asked if there was anything else I could do. I was lucky enough to be assigned another job. I got to fold some letters and stuff envelopes. It only took me about 30 minutes before I was outta work again. I am hoping tomorrow they have some more odd jobs for me to do while I wait for phone calls. Yesterday I called into the kids store on my lunch break. At the training we were told to call or stop by the store between the 5th and the 10th of December. I went into the store and was told she would call me because she didn't have the schedule yet. I was so worried that I would not know when my first shift was so I called the store again on my lunch break. The manager is a young girl who just sounded annoyed with me calling. I explained that we were instructed to call in and that I was worried I would miss my first shift. She then said she would call me later that day to let me know when it was. She did call last night to tell me that my first shift would be on December 23rd at 9pm until midnight. I was so pissed off!! I have been waiting in Melbourne for this job and feel like it was a complete waste of time. Since I was too excited for this job, too enthusiastic to work, I have been punished with one shift. I am supposed to be on a three week contract with this store. A Christmas casual as they call it. Well what kind of Christmas casual starts two days before Christmas? I was so frustrated and angry about it I cried most of the night. I feel stupid for waiting for this job. I got mad and went online to check out some job search website. I took down some numbers and also applied for one job at a salon near by explaining I would be leaving at the beginning of January and just wanted to help out over Christmas. I went to bed feeling defeated. I felt like such a failure because I have never had this much trouble getting a job or even finding a path in my life. I never realized how much I depended on having a schedule. My body is rebelling against me because it doesn't know what is happening. I am not used to doing whatever I want. To not having a schedule or appointments. To not knowing what is ahead. This must be the lesson I am to learn on this trip. Let go! I will be fine not knowing. I am okay without a purpose. I am right where I am supposed to be, because things happen for a reason. This morning I awoke with swollen eyes and a sad feeling. I slept well because I hadn't the last few nights before. Helen dropped me off at work and I told myself to smile because people even on the phone can hear if your smiling. About 10:30am I realized I had a message on my phone. I took a bathroom break and listened to it. If you can believe it was a call from the salon I applied at last night. I called them back on my lunch break. I have an interview on Saturday. I explained that I would only be available until January. He said he understood and asked a few questions. It felt really honest and really good. I have a real good feeling about it. Helen and I drove by the salon on the way home from work. It is not far from where I am living. I google mapped it out and know I could walk there. I also checked out the bus route and I would have to take a bus then train then bus to get there. It would take over an hour. It should take me no more than thirty minutes to walk. Diana has offered to take me on Saturday, since we have a few other things we want to do afterwards. I am very grateful that she is so willing to help me out. I am in such a better mood tonight. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Even if I don't get this job I will be fine. I am fine just doing whatever happens. I just need to remember the sun is shining (most days) and I am trying to have the experience of a life time, even if most days it doesn't feel like it. Everyday I miss home and family and friends, but then remember that there are so many people that have never left North America, or Canada, or Manitoba, or their own city or town. I am grateful but know I worked very hard to be here.
Until next time,
Cindy