If you ever watch Sex and the city you will understand this blog. My favorite part about the four girls is how they can be so honest with one another. Carrie may be scared to tell Charlotte she is having an affair with Big, but still she tells her. And when she does, they fight. Not like fist fight, but ya know they yell a little and both get their point across. And then maybe they have a day or two apart but in the end Carrie and Charlotte and the other girls end up at their favorite breakfast spot. The whole point is, they're honest with one another. They let it out. They talk about how they feel. They each have a point and its valid. I want this. I want this with my friends and family. I want to give my opinion and not worry about hurting any ones feelings. I want to say what is on my mind without worrying someones mom won't talk to me because I said it. At this point in my life, I'm terrified I will say the wrong thing. I actually do say the wrong thing on a daily basis. Which means, I back pedal to try and get my foot out of my mouth. I hate that. It turns into me becoming someone I'm not. I want to be myself. I want to say what is in my mind and in my heart. This, of course, doesn't mean I should be a rude bitch and say inappropriate things at inappropriate times. It means when something bothers me, I say it. I don't worry about making sure the other person feels better about it when I do. I have the people in my life that I want in my life. I have honest relationships with the people in my life. This is my goal while I'm on my travels. I am going to find myself. I want to be more comfortable with who I am, not who people expect me to be. I want to have friends I can be honest with and who will be honest back. I want to be real.
Well lets hope I find what I'm looking for while I'm travelling. Hopefully I come back as the person I want to be.
Until next time.
Cindy
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